There are a few things one feels one can not get enough of. Like attention.
:)
Learning and shedding weight of delusion, I discover scope for so much more learning. (Glad to discover this at each juncture.)
Problems become pointers, and as I leave my old-self, I feel better
to not be deluded anymore, to not 'want' anymore. To not be a 'woman' anymore.
I do not seem to be relating to the gaze of men, to the slights and the praise, to the attention and the passion, as if none of these things are of central concern. I can talk to people without feeling much about their gender. Had been such for a very long time, but as one practices one needs to be mindful of the 'matter'.
I am surprised how I was such a naive, ignoramus, and deluded!
When did my conceit regarding 'gender' leave me?? ... it left such a big hole behind, and a breath of fresh air ;)
