Monk n the Highway
My journal for Vipassana meditation. I took my first Vipassana course during October 2002, and have been regularly meditating since.
Friday, May 2, 2014
Saturday, October 27, 2012
Scraping off Sense-of-Self
Again with a stiff body I sat down for meditation, for the
nth time in this life.
Stiff, stiff stiff, me me me. I gradually started noticing
for the first time, the sense of me is instilled in each column of the spine, in
each nerve, tissue, sinew … so filled up with the sense of self, and therefore
so stiff.
Will take time to scrape it down and not paint new layers on
it.
BIG task ahead
*Sense of self/ me me me - not to be understood as 'selfish' but closer to the Pali word 'anatta' or non self
Monday, October 22, 2012
My Poem
Deep blue ocean of love
spread as far as eyes can see
I need no float, no mast, no ship
Flung myself to become one with the sea
Splash I did, and hard I hit
...o waves, no tides, the sea was gone
Soiled myself in a muddy bottom of a pond
spread as far as eyes can see
I need no float, no mast, no ship
Flung myself to become one with the sea
Splash I did, and hard I hit
...o waves, no tides, the sea was gone
Soiled myself in a muddy bottom of a pond
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
Tell me what to do
I was speaking to my sister earlier ... apart from sharing an understanding we share many things in common ... just makes it easier to share and understand each other.
So, I was talking to her about choices I made and decisions done staking material things and saving conscientiousness and moral pride. Staking everything.
We then talked about how loads of people would 'compromise' and change their moral standards when they face opposing tides. Suddenly, when faced with a difficult situation there arises an inner conflict, and people say, ''I do not know what to do''!
And then this precious thought occurred to me - only few, very few have the clarity and courage of knowing what to do in difficult situations. Obviously if you are practicing Dhamma there is no doubt that you be with the truth, and then there are no doubts about what to do ...
Very few people have clarity and moral vision in rough times, these people have the ;rare' quality of knowing what to do.
This sets them apart from others, and this very quality of knowing what to do when times are rough, goes in makings of a good leader.
I mentioned this quality relating it with being a leader to my sister since she will be managing big businesses soon after she graduates from her MBA college in India.
So, leaders that have a strong foundation in vision that comes from goodwill for others and moral virtue will be in the right, they will be trusted and be loved!
When faced with a difficult situation they would not compromise themselves, rather they will Know what to do ...
Compromisers have the attitude - Tell me what to do
Meditation requires all good qualities, you will find many times that meditation appeals you to have qualities that you read in classic tales - tales of courage and sacrifice, of true love and dignity. Meditation requires you to know your own true answers. Meditation teaches you to not be 'tell me what to do' it teaches you to look within and find answers for yourself. The yogis do say the answers lies within!
It does indeed!
Saturday, September 1, 2012
Buddha Relics
Went to meditate with Tibetan Lamas visiting north London carrying with them the relics of Shakyamuni Buddha with them.
The tour is Maitreya Tour
http://www.maitreyaproject.org/en/relic/index.html
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Silence
I dont know why I write this post?
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
If Times are Rough - Meditate
Benefits of meditation are proverbial. I am not going to say anything new here. Just sharing 'my' experience.
It has been a while - since I wrote on this blog. Also, been some time since I have had a 'good' meditation. By good, please understand I do not imply pleasure, but clarity. Yesterday night I tried again, to sit and meditate, mind went into its wanderings keeping it occupied with thoughts (hence away from clarity, clear 'seeing'). But some moments were clear, objective, and just with the breath, I tapped in these to discover meditative attitudes and explored deeper objectivity.
These moments of deeper understanding are like earthquakes. Leave a long lasting impact even when you go back to everyday life.
For me, it was special also for couple of other reasons. My laptop stopped working (dust in fan so was overheating and shutting down, Virus etc.) No one would tell me what the problem was or ask for insane amounts of money, one mechanic said my computer was worth 4,000 Rs and will cost 5,000 to repair. I came back home without getting it fixed and feeling very miserable as I was kept from being connected from my loved ones - I use the computer a lot for Skype.
Anyway, I meditated and had those clear moments. Weather as if celebrated this and we had a storm and then after that gifted us with beautiful crystal clear sunshine, perfect temprature, and clean air (I live in a very dusty and p[olluted city otherwise).
A mechanic came to my house and fixed the coputer for 500 Rs.
And things changed generally. Things I was feeling crazy about now seem sorted. Nothing much has changed materially, but I am relating this to meditation. Somehow meditation brings changes in your material landscape. To know it - experience it.
Love
#after the meditation last night pain in back of my neck was gone - pain from stress, I woke up early and refreshed and felt beautiful inside, kept smiling.
Ok, am going now, a friend is coming around to return some money I lent her some time back ...
It has been a while - since I wrote on this blog. Also, been some time since I have had a 'good' meditation. By good, please understand I do not imply pleasure, but clarity. Yesterday night I tried again, to sit and meditate, mind went into its wanderings keeping it occupied with thoughts (hence away from clarity, clear 'seeing'). But some moments were clear, objective, and just with the breath, I tapped in these to discover meditative attitudes and explored deeper objectivity.
These moments of deeper understanding are like earthquakes. Leave a long lasting impact even when you go back to everyday life.
For me, it was special also for couple of other reasons. My laptop stopped working (dust in fan so was overheating and shutting down, Virus etc.) No one would tell me what the problem was or ask for insane amounts of money, one mechanic said my computer was worth 4,000 Rs and will cost 5,000 to repair. I came back home without getting it fixed and feeling very miserable as I was kept from being connected from my loved ones - I use the computer a lot for Skype.
Anyway, I meditated and had those clear moments. Weather as if celebrated this and we had a storm and then after that gifted us with beautiful crystal clear sunshine, perfect temprature, and clean air (I live in a very dusty and p[olluted city otherwise).
A mechanic came to my house and fixed the coputer for 500 Rs.
And things changed generally. Things I was feeling crazy about now seem sorted. Nothing much has changed materially, but I am relating this to meditation. Somehow meditation brings changes in your material landscape. To know it - experience it.
Love
#after the meditation last night pain in back of my neck was gone - pain from stress, I woke up early and refreshed and felt beautiful inside, kept smiling.
Ok, am going now, a friend is coming around to return some money I lent her some time back ...
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