O mistakes! why I miss thee?
O sadness! why I skip thee?
Be...cause you take from me
what was always there, what was always free
And you tag it with a price
and thats certainly not nice!
Pj :)
Friday, July 17, 2009
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Letter to a Non-meditator Friend
Dear
I understand what it is to be staying without family ... or knowing there is none around if you want to take a year off from work.
Our situations are different, but I can imagine the plight. One thing is for sure, it does not take just a day to come out of such situations, or feelings. This feeling of plight, even when you are well-placed currently, and more sensible than most, is sometimes too abstract, and one doesnt know exactly what to fix, it seems to permeate everything to some extent.
It will be comforting to know that you wont have to go around changing others or everything around you to gain happiness, you have to take over control of just one thing, your own clarity of mind. What usually happens is that we keep going around in circles, we perceive some people as good, then we start doubting that goodness, and then something crops up again and we replace that trust.
Again the same circle starts of evaluating and revaluating our feelings for someone, and revaluating ourselves against them. All this and more happens when we live superficially, What is it to live superficially, lightly? When we have to constantly change our evaluations of things and people around us, when there is no constancy, when this happens one should understand one is in shallow waters. If one is facing emotional upheavals, one is living superficially. It is not Grand living, it is not noble living. One becomes anguished and that anguish spreads to others. One not only feels vulnerable, but also becomes vulnerable, getting deeply influenced even by small seemingly insignificant matters that steal one of one's vital energy.
It takes lot of patience to steer yourself out of such plight, to become one of stainless steel, it is akin to crossing an ocean, or getting in to a top B-school, it takes effort in the right direction. Some people have a better vessel than others, support of partner, family, children make this ocean easy to cross. What dissuades us from understanding what is right is our own fear of the consequences, greed and delusions about things, they grasp a hold we cant resist. Some moments of clarity may come, but they are deeply overshadowed in everyday humdrum.
One has to learn to expand these moments of intelligence until it spreads to each situation you are facing, when this sensibility that comes with insight, detachment and every-present joy, penetrates and inspires each action you undertake. There is a way to it, and it takes practice.
As long as you know you are on your way, storms can keep coming!
Lv
Pooja
I understand what it is to be staying without family ... or knowing there is none around if you want to take a year off from work.
Our situations are different, but I can imagine the plight. One thing is for sure, it does not take just a day to come out of such situations, or feelings. This feeling of plight, even when you are well-placed currently, and more sensible than most, is sometimes too abstract, and one doesnt know exactly what to fix, it seems to permeate everything to some extent.
It will be comforting to know that you wont have to go around changing others or everything around you to gain happiness, you have to take over control of just one thing, your own clarity of mind. What usually happens is that we keep going around in circles, we perceive some people as good, then we start doubting that goodness, and then something crops up again and we replace that trust.
Again the same circle starts of evaluating and revaluating our feelings for someone, and revaluating ourselves against them. All this and more happens when we live superficially, What is it to live superficially, lightly? When we have to constantly change our evaluations of things and people around us, when there is no constancy, when this happens one should understand one is in shallow waters. If one is facing emotional upheavals, one is living superficially. It is not Grand living, it is not noble living. One becomes anguished and that anguish spreads to others. One not only feels vulnerable, but also becomes vulnerable, getting deeply influenced even by small seemingly insignificant matters that steal one of one's vital energy.
It takes lot of patience to steer yourself out of such plight, to become one of stainless steel, it is akin to crossing an ocean, or getting in to a top B-school, it takes effort in the right direction. Some people have a better vessel than others, support of partner, family, children make this ocean easy to cross. What dissuades us from understanding what is right is our own fear of the consequences, greed and delusions about things, they grasp a hold we cant resist. Some moments of clarity may come, but they are deeply overshadowed in everyday humdrum.
One has to learn to expand these moments of intelligence until it spreads to each situation you are facing, when this sensibility that comes with insight, detachment and every-present joy, penetrates and inspires each action you undertake. There is a way to it, and it takes practice.
As long as you know you are on your way, storms can keep coming!
Lv
Pooja
As I Change
This Saturday I went for a group sitting
Finding verse to catch the framework ...
May be there is harm, may be there isn't. This morning I wondered if I'd like to skip a year of hardship and move to the good ones ... it is the same, it is the same ... it is not as if bad is bad or good is good ... for me it should all be the same.
Finding verse to catch the framework ...
May be there is harm, may be there isn't. This morning I wondered if I'd like to skip a year of hardship and move to the good ones ... it is the same, it is the same ... it is not as if bad is bad or good is good ... for me it should all be the same.
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