Just returned from Gargesh sir's stylistics class. He talked about intrinsic and extrinsic reality, modles of Tragen and A.A Hill on language...structure and organic relationship in text analysis. It is funny, they read these western scholars and without reaching the depths come and reciprocate the words and concepts very literally in the class. His class is again at 2. Have to go to Knags to increase the RAM of the laptop, dunnow how much will it cost, but should be worth it, irritating when it works slow!

OUP

Oxford University Press -oup
They are paying me Rs 15 per page for copyediting some silly hotel management book. Big names but they pay peanuts and get mediocre jobs done from graduaes, students/anybody who would take their cheap rates and follow the style sheets right 'oxford coma' n all and do the weeding.
Want ot finish this book before I go for the field trip to collect data for the project, with my linguistics class.
Got slight fever and cold, my matress is too thin to sleep on and I would lie cold all night, and stay in bed for extended time (till 8) since it is a little warm and me can rest ... can't believe I couldn't afford a thick mattress, last year I was fine with the ol mattress, guess I have grown am aging he he brother called up to ask my account number so that he may transfer money, I need it, I refused. Refusing the money right now is risking my MA degree, have been working for peanuts, payments get stuck (publishing houses pay after months opf getting the job done) and only 4 months left for the course to end, need time to study, and peace of mind. FOrtune recently befell the family, they won the court case, am happy for them. But they had snatched my basics rights from me as a child, have been very insensitive, and made me realise I have to look after myself, a great realisation, evryone has to take their own responsibility and suffer the pain if sickness comes, sooner u realise the better it is. Realisation dawned on me as a child, through the family and am thankful to all of them. Would have never understood the existentialist plight, would have never appreciated vipassana like I do, May they be happy, may all be happy...
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Winter noon

Was walking back from the dept. Saw AP sitting in a grey suit sitting on a bench with a student of his (now a teacher with him in the dept.) he greeted me, I noticed he considered shaking hands and seeing no initiation on my part held back-the gentleman he is!
H asked me to narrate the amusing story, how before the leaving home the following day brother smashed my cell and hit me, and mom hit me for crying too much, I was calm ...cried all night after the incident knew that I'd be leaving them they had tested my patience, next day took mom out to CP, hanuman mandir, shopping stores, coffee house, made her day, slept calmly, next morning got up early arranged my certificates passports, made breakfast for her, and slipped out, with a bag of clothes. AP finds the story amusing cuz i showed conviction, and cuz i didn't react and was calm. He wiped a tear and said strong stories make him cry. He is a fine man Prof. Gargesh commented. We got talking about relationships and he told me not get in to a relationship and take care of studies and not to consider marrying broke guys ;) ... he comes to arts fac. every Tuesday

AP: Do not repeat mistakes, make new ones!

My gmail status: Learning is explosive, you Know when it happens

At the hostel

... all kinds of situations come up. exams, pranks, disasters, friends calling, getting broke, education trips, people cheating and lonely people...some times everything happens at the same time around you.

have a major exam day after. haven't studied the whole year. got the books day before yesterday, yesterday was gone as friends came calling and me would not say nay, today another friend came, I was studying. She needed a place to stay as she lives in another town and needs to write her exams but has no place to stay in Delhi. She is an old friend who is still overwhelmed by troubled childhood experiences and talks a lot, sentimental shit. I'd fail if I listen to her banter, and she can't stay in the same room and not talk. "Will you let me stay with you for exams?" she asked...I am so pathetic (i already share my room with my roomie) that I said 'yes'. Got juice for her, asked her to keep her mouth shut in terse words, asked her to sleep. She gets up and starts yanking about miseries of life, I asked her to open my cupboard, take my face wash and get fresh...got tea and chips for her in the meantime. Gave it to her without a word and went back to studies. She sat on the opposite bed turning a book while I studied. She opens my cupboard-'you got all herbal stuff', you know u should eat amla for vitamin C like i do everyday, what is this, wat is this...