Just read someone’s blog, and drew on my fake repository of ‘faith’ and ‘energy’ to write this down.
I call it a fake repository, because nothing is actually there. No energy enthusiasm is there until my minds 'makes' it up - give it the direction u see
Lol
I was seeing thus:
In the end (death) nothing remains, if there is nothing in the process ‘now’, if you are knowing now and giving way to old habit patterns to come and go silently, weakening the defilements of the mind each time I don’t indulge greed, pain or passion
Today for a few minutes my mind was distracted, I saw how defilements had become my state of mind. I looked at these thoughts and felt very strange, this strong defilement - eh this is not 'me' :) eh? and let it fizzle and pass by, back to peace and clarity and further path
Looking back, how far I have come! From a mind that was constantly in turmoil, to this mind, that ‘feels’ it, if a defilement arises
A no mind is no fear-even in the end, there is nothing to cling or fear
